Had a friend commit suicide last night.

[naynay]

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[GADDIS]

I just got the phone call from my brother. A kid I grew up with, and have known for 20 years, killed himself on NYE. I don't know any of the hows and whys for sure, but I'm hearing he hung himself. I honestly hadn't seen the guy in a long time. He was a big fixture in my little brother's circle of friends. I don't really have a point, other than it's a shock, and I've never thought about any of my friends killing themselves. I'm stunned with regret at the thought, even though it's too easy to say any of us would've helped him. I want to call everyone now, and make sure they're alright, and in a good place. I just want all my friends on this board to know, if you're ever down, and you need anything, don't let it go. You can dig out, and if you need help, ask, please!

RIP, Frankie.

Sorry to hear this. My wife lost her dad about 5 yrs ago. I never got a chance to meet him. Iv watched how his decision has affected her family. Its been a very hard thing to watch. Ive taken away some incite, from the things iv helped her deal with. The things i high lighted are the two biggest question that will eat at you. Don't get consumed, by continuously going down these roads. There are no answers on that path. If you do find answers they are dark and hollow, and will reopen the wound all over again. Rejoice in his memory. Remember the good times, and who he was. Not that he chose to leave. Holla if you need anything.

[03trubluGT]

how do you do that? I mean seriously, I couldn't even walk into the room with that.

I hate to say it, but one gets calloused.

I graduated from the police academy on a Friday afternoon, and had to report for my first day of field training the next day (Saturday). It was that day I saw my first suicide. A 40-ish yoa man rented a motel room and committed suicide because his wife wanted a divorce. He had a $300k home, and a $50k new Suburban parked outside the room and he ended his life over a divorce.

It took me several days to quit having nightmares about seeing his body and wondering why as humans we do the things we do to ourselves.

I've seen God-awful things for the last 20 years, and it's something I've learned to deal with.

[talisman]

I hate to say it, but one gets calloused.

I graduated from the police academy on a Friday afternoon, and had to report for my first day of field training the next day (Saturday). It was that day I saw my first suicide. A 40-ish yoa man rented a motel room and committed suicide because his wife wanted a divorce. He had a $300k home, and a $50k new Suburban parked outside the room and he ended his life over a divorce.

It took me several days to quit having nightmares about seeing his body and wondering why as humans we do the things we do to ourselves.

I've seen God-awful things for the last 20 years, and it's something I've learned to deal with.

Money means nothing when you go through something like that. Neither does much of anything else except the pain of your heart being crushed. I'm not saying it was the right move on his part. I'm just saying I understand.

[soap]

OMG. Sorry bro

[idrivea4banger]

Sorry for your loss man.

[YALE]

Thanks again, fellas. I'm in a good place. It's just sad seeing people go for no good reason.

[CJ]

I just got the phone call from my brother. A kid I grew up with, and have known for 20 years, killed himself on NYE. I don't know any of the hows and whys for sure, but I'm hearing he hung himself. I honestly hadn't seen the guy in a long time. He was a big fixture in my little brother's circle of friends. I don't really have a point, other than it's a shock, and I've never thought about any of my friends killing themselves. I'm stunned with regret at the thought, even though it's too easy to say any of us would've helped him. I want to call everyone now, and make sure they're alright, and in a good place. I just want all my friends on this board to know, if you're ever down, and you need anything, don't let it go. You can dig out, and if you need help, ask, please!

RIP, Frankie.

I feel ya man. I had a very good friend my freshman year of college ask to buy a .45 from me. I took him shooting, showed him how to handle it, everything. The following weekend I invited him out to the lake with us, he didn't feel like going. I spent like 10 minutes trying to pressure him into going, but couldn't. Later that night a friend calls me to tell me he killed himself with that .45. Can't ever shake that shit as long as I live.

[jdgregory84]

I lost a step brother and a close friend to drug overdoses which I basicaly consider committing suicide. While there was definitely grieving, in the end both times I've found myself lacking in sympathy for them and whatever reason they had to hurt their friends and family by doing something that selfish. Nothing is so bad that you should kill yourself. Even animals are smart enough to practice self-preservation. While I know how you feel and can understand how badly you're hurting, your friend is a real asshole for putting you and others that knew him through this.