i'd like to apoligize and clear my name

[jasone]

Good luck but I do feel like I have read all this before.

[71chevellejohn]

2 months

Does the pool need to be posted in a separate thread?

[Binky]

Its not like its a fucking common occurance where a sociopath makes a fake apology/cry for help either for attention. This behavior isn't new regardless of what sob story he spouts off as being the cause. I don't believe one single word of it and know its all an act.

Sell your bullshit somewhere else. If you do by any chance off yourself - i'd be happy to celebrate the event by picking up the dog shit in my backyard in your honor.

[orphan Shelby]

Don't change for anybody but yourself. We'll eventually see the changes you're making.

Exactly! Don't know ya beyond some fucked up posts but hopefully you can stay on course of a better path. Good luck and hope you follow through your full plan.

Its not like he's the only habitual douche bag on here lol

[Rick Modena]

Regardless of the shitbag you used to be and may still be, I hope you get it together. Good luck.

lol.

[Nash B.]

Regardless of the shitbag you used to be and may still be, I hope you get it together. Good luck.

[A+]

I didn't read the thread but if you're on here apologizing to some people whom you have probably never met over some shit you talk over the internet.....you probably don't have any real human friends.

[sosoe]

. I just wish you guys could actually see the changes ive made and the things that I have planned in the future.

See the changes.? I remember a few months ago reading some of your nonsense posts, You ACTUALLY think people change over a one to two month period? The changes you claim to have made should be noticeable by others who know you personally, change doesn't happen overnight buddy. But, you are on the right track scooter.

[Cooter]

Don't change for anybody but yourself. We'll eventually see the changes you're making.

[Damnittsteve]

I fully believe that we all have the capacity to make changes for the better, but it's really hard for me to take seriously someone that was going to bible college, while talking insults and profanity out of the other side of his mouth.

"Actions speak louder than words," and this apology is absolutely meaningless until you actually DO change Steve.

I totally agree aaron. my attitude and actions while attending such classes are why I felt so sick as a person to begin with. even if I was financially able to go back this next semester I need to get my head right first and my mouth a close second. because even though I was doing some good things in real life nothing would excuse the double life dr jekyl mr hyde that I had become. I just wish you guys could actually see the changes ive made and the things that I have planned in the future.

[racrguy]

Paul, I'll give anyone a shot to get their shit together. After the 19th shot, I'm moving on.

Yep.

[Big A]

I fully believe that we all have the capacity to make changes for the better, but it's really hard for me to take seriously someone that was going to bible college, while talking insults and profanity out of the other side of his mouth.

"Actions speak louder than words," and this apology is absolutely meaningless until you actually DO change Steve.

[LS1Goat]

Steve - I don't know you outside of trying to extend you a little sympathy and support one time when you said you thought you might have cancer. Then, you melted down about something or another shortly afterwards. I stopped paying attention at that point.

However, I have a poem for you. Print it out and paste on your bathroom mirror. Learn it, live it. You'll never earn respect from most around here based on past behavior. However, you can earn self-respect.

Potholes
Chapter One
I walk down the street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I fall in.
I am lost .... I am helpless.
It isn't my fault.
It takes forever to find a way out.

Chapter Two
I walk down the street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I pretend that I don't see it.
I fall in again.
I can't believe I am in this same place.
But, it isn't my fault.
It still takes a long time to get out.

Chapter Three
I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I see it is there.
I still fall in ... it's a habit ... but, my eyes are open.
I know where I am.
It is my fault.
I get out immediately.

Chapter Four
I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I walk around it.

Chapter Five
I walk down another street.

[Damnittsteve]

How do you have a fallout with your family while your going to college to be a minister. It sounds like you're a spoiled attention whore and threw a fit because they wouldn't buy you an iPad or something stupid like that

no, like said before I told them I wanted full indepedance financially from them and they took it like I was saying I was better then them and now they want nothing to do with me. if im crazy, would it sound so odd to assume they aren't just as bad if not worse? doesn't matter, im not here for sympathy, that's not what this thread is about. its about me apologizing for the things Ive done because because this website deserves an apology from me, actually it deserves more, but that's all I can offer at this time and I will do my best to honor it.

[Damnittsteve]

I support you Steve. I understand every day is a struggle. Write down a list that describes the person you want to be and read it to yourself first thing every day. Sometimes you need to be reminded.

You've said some terrible things in the past and I suppose you probably will again. But that doesn't mean you should stop trying to better yourself.

that's probably the best advice ive ever heard over the internet. thanks danny. this is going to be a battle I have to fight and win daily, no different from anyone else on here.