Well Im at a pretty low point in life right now. My struggle with Pure O OCD

[Sean88gt]

that poor woman!

Tell me about it, but if i dont do that, that motherfucker is coming down.

I finally explained it, but up until that point, they just thought I was a really sick fuck.

[Cannon88]

#ashylarry

god bless.

lmao

[bird_dog0347]

Huh... I Thought it was just me. Ditto what Cooter said.

[racrguy]

See folks, this is why we have trained professionals to diagnose shit. Go see a professional and find out if you are not in fact an asshole. Most of us are assholes and have come to grips with this. Now it's time for your journey, my son.

[prostock1]

Where to begin?
This last week Iv figured out/been diagnosed that I have a condition called Primarily Obsessional OCD otherwise known as "Pure O OCD". In layman's terms that means I have random thoughts that pop in my head about scenarios that have to do with horrific violence, sex, and others. Heres a better explanation http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Primarily_Obsessional_OCD .

Everyone with OCD and get help.

My thoughts and prayers are with you.
I can understand this and actually have family members with very common issues.

Hang in there, friend

[lincolnboy]

Well this site does not help any.

[bcoop]

I firmly believe that we're all "fucked up," it's just a matter of to what degree.

This is absolute truth.

[bluecollar]

I firmly believe that we're all "fucked up," it's just a matter of to what degree.

Agreed.

We won't go into some of the thoughts that show up in my head, or how I play them out in varying scenarios just to see which one would be more horrific in the end.

I'm glad you can bring this out in the open. That first step is huge. You've got support here. I've never met you, but please believe that I will gladly buy you a beer and talk any time you want.

[jammeejamm]

i may not be on the same level, but i never really gave second thought to me every carrying out any of my random violent/aggression thoughts. like said above my add never lets me marinate on anything too long. and that is somewhat of a blessing.

the only time i think i may act out is when i just finally fucking ram someone on 75 one day. i always think of falling down. one day the shit life gives you just broke the dam and contents just come flowing out. i always tell my girlfriend, everything is a test. like the universe is trying to see if i will snap, or will i just get in the bathtub with the toaster. so far i always keep true to the thought i am holding out for something better.

[Rick Modena]

You've been here long enough to know we're one big dysfunctional family. Aside from just a few people that have tried to reach out, only to prove that they're in fact a doucher, this can be a pretty good support network.

Dude, it's admirable that you can talk about it. We bust on each other pretty hard in here, but it's not that serious. I'm glad you spoke up about your problem. If there's anything I can do, say the word.

I firmly believe that we're all "fucked up," it's just a matter of to what degree.

Exactly.

This is absolute truth.

Listen to all of this advise, we are all here for you.

Well this site does not help any.

Except this guy, don't listen to shit this guy has to say...

[Frank]

I don't have anything special to say that hasn't already been said. I don't think anyone here is going to talk shit about someone who is truly pouring their heart out in a known den-of-wolves. I have always heard that these thoughts, to some extent are pretty normal, but yours is a level most people never experience. I didn't know it was a "thing" either so I'm glad you shared. Best of luck to you. We'll listen.

[Cooter]

just to illustrate to those who have no idea what exactly he's talking about...

this isn't about punching the old bitch in the checkout line who's taking an eternity to write a check for a quart of half and half... I'm pretty sure she could stand a slap in the fucking mouth, but I won't be the one to deliver it today...

no, this is about...

yesterday... REALLY stressful day, but I made positive steps to reduce stress and fire a customer who doesn't realize they cause me stress and would do everything in their power to eliminate it, but I realized that at the end of the day, nothing would eliminate it but to eliminate it. SO, I just told him that I have moved on to another venture and that I wished him all the best.

well, then I was stressed out because I'd just turned down money from a long time, good customer that I really cared about... but that's what prevented me from cutting ties previously.

Anyhow, I'm still all stressed out and haven't quite worked through this whole thing in my mind, and I'm unpacking and my beloved dog is laying on the bed.

ANYBODY who knows me knows how much I love this fucking dog. He's my unlicensed therapy dog. He's my buddy. He's with me constantly, but I didn't take him with me to go deliver the news. I don't like having him with me in the truck when I'm stressed because he can read it and it stresses him out.

ANYHOW, I get home, I'm unpacking, he's lying on the bed, and I have a momentary flash of blowing his head off.

This kind of stuff used to REALLY eat at me. It happens so quick, it's literally a flash of a thought that doesn't even cause me to pause what I'm doing in any way.

It's a horrible image and thought, but I've come to realize that it's stress manifesting itself.

It was an unpleasant thought, but instead of obsessing on it and obsessing on why on earth would I even have such a thought, I just kept working on stuff that I needed to do and completely forgot about it until you posted this thread this morning.

It's gotten to the point where I barely think about it, and I want to thank you for posting about it because:

I never realized this was an actual thing that other people suffered from and that I'm not the only one.

It makes me realize that I'm actually making progress in my life. It's hard to see progress over the course of a year, two, three, ten years, etc. when you're just kinda dealing with the moment. But I've been dealing with these moments for a long time, and I'm just now realizing that they have FAR FAR FAR less power over me than they once did.

And all of this makes me realize that they're going to have even less power now.

And I hope this may shine some light on you and your situation. It can get way better, and I pretty much lucked into getting better... Though it sounds like you've lucked into it as well with a loving, supportive wife!!

[Cooter]

Also, I'm in NO way comparing the severity of my condition to yours!

Obviously we all have our own challenges. This sounds like it's been a big one for you, but I'm praying that, now that you and your loved ones have identified it, you can work together at it.

Sometimes the coming together over a problem is more important than actually finding a solution to the problem.

Talking to a therapist is going to help a ton, and as stated above, don't feel bad about trying different therapists. You don't buy the first pair of shoes your try on, and that's just your feet! Your feet are VERY important, but your mental health is even MORE important. Take care of yourself. Any caring professional will be happy to hear that you've found a different therapist who is working perfectly for you.

Keep your head up, brother!

[dsrtuckteezy]

sorry it's affecting your life so much. i have some pretty fucked up thoughts from time to time like you describe, but i know for a fact i could never act on them. i just chalk it up to the power and curiosity of the brain. powerful shit

[Tremor14]

these thoughts are why i dont own a gun. I am way too emotional, and at times irrational to own such a tool.