I'm struggling today..

[Steve]

I'm struggling today. I'm not sure how or what I should be doing/feeling about it. Hell, I'm not even sure why I'm telling you guys this shit because I know you guys don't care. I'll most likely probably delete this before long so it doesn't get derailed.

My mother died yesterday morning.


Now, I sit here with conflict, confusion or I dunno what else. I haven't spoken to her in many years. I'm trying to remember the good times and it all seems to be a haze because there was so little of it. I didn't exactly win the lottery when it came to parent selection. I know I made the right personal choice seperating myself from a toxic enviorment and not exposing my wife/daughter to it all.

I'm finding myself caught surprisingly off guard with this pain and not sure what to do with it. I was numb to it yesterday when my brother called me, but it's been constantly on my mind since and not sure how to deal with it.

It's one thing after another lately.

Fuck.

[talisman]

All BS aside, that seriously sucks. Sorry you're going through it. Don't know what I'm going to do when I get that call some day with my parents.

[mustangguy289]

I am not sure if I have any good advice for you other than don't beat yourself up over anything. You did what you thought was best for you and your wife/daughter who are more important to you. Time will take care of it all. My condolences to you.

[Snatch Napkin]

Heavy.

Luckily, this topic has been discussed recently.

http://www.dfwmustangs.net/forums/showthread.php?t=30245

I wanted to make a "repost" or "search it dumbass" joke to lighten the mood, but wasn't sure of the response.

[Steve]

Heavy.

Luckily, this topic has been discussed recently.

http://www.dfwmustangs.net/forums/showthread.php?t=30245

I wanted to make a "repost" or "search it dumbass" joke to lighten the mood, but wasn't sure of the response.

Sorry, I missed that one. I guess I should have dead mother search before posting.

[SVT Lurch]

Sorry to hear that. I've always felt that your immediate family was slightly elevated in importance than the rest of them so if saving your wife and daughter from someone you felt was harmful you cannot fault yourself. At that age your daughter would not have remembered meeting her anyway.

[Snatch Napkin]

Sorry, I missed that one. I guess I should have dead mother search before posting.

Truche.

[sspstang]

Steve, I am sorry, and you and your family are in my prayers. We maybe ass holes 99.9% of the time, but when it comes to compassion, this board from what I have seen, is one of the best.

[mustangguy289]

Sorry, I missed that one. I guess I should have dead mother search before posting.

I chuckled.

[Steve]

Sorry to hear that. I've always felt that your immediate family was slightly elevated in importance than the rest of them so if saving your wife and daughter from someone you felt was harmful you cannot fault yourself. At that age your daughter would not have remembered meeting her anyway.

Absolutely. I have no regret in regards to my decision.

[STANGGT40]

I'm struggling today. I'm not sure how or what I should be doing/feeling about it. Hell, I'm not even sure why I'm telling you guys this shit because I know you guys don't care. I'll most likely probably delete this before long so it doesn't get derailed.

My mother died yesterday morning.


Now, I sit here with conflict, confusion or I dunno what else. I haven't spoken to her in many years. I'm trying to remember the good times and it all seems to be a haze because there was so little of it. I didn't exactly win the lottery when it came to parent selection. I know I made the right personal choice seperating myself from a toxic enviorment and not exposing my wife/daughter to it all.

I'm finding myself caught surprisingly off guard with this pain and not sure what to do with it. I was numb to it yesterday when my brother called me, but it's been constantly on my mind since and not sure how to deal with it.

It's one thing after another lately.

Fuck.

i'm sorry to hear about that, steve...i'm sure it's tough, even though you didn't have the best relationship with her. it sounds like you did the best thing for your immediate family, which is what really matters! if it makes you feel any better, you're welcome to come drop by kilgore bjj and arm-bar me a few times!

[Samhain]

Steve, I am sorry, and you and your family are in my prayers. We maybe ass holes 99.9% of the time, but when it comes to compassion, this board from what I have seen, is one of the best.

Threadis interuptus... So are you that dipshit 95snake?

[downshift_me]

I'm sorry for your loss, Steve. I can't imagine what you're feeling at the moment, but I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.

[Treasure Chest]

I'm sorry, Steve.

[krazy kris]

I am sorry for your loss